Tick tock tick tock tick...

Mary sent Doreen our email today because she was having email issues yesterday. I asked her what she thought and she said it was terrific. She said one piece was a little stringent so I softened my language a bit. She got off the phone and called Doreen and "softened" my language over the phone. So now we wait. And the hours pass and I know they are considering it. I have a lump in my throat - we want this in the worst way. The more days that pass, we want this baby boy! And I will share with you all that if he is ours, his name will be Jake Samuel. (I actually wrote that in my "parameter email.") I hope they like it too.
We spoke to our attorney yesterday who has also gone through the adoption process and has had an unbelievably positive experience. He even has the birthmother come and stay with him once a year! I know that sounds crazy to most of you but strangely enough, being in our situation, it doesn't sound so strange to us anymore. Of course we wouldn't ever do that...it's just not right for us but it's not crazy. Adoption isn't like a Lifetime movie where you have to look over your shoulder and keep one eye open when sleeping at night. It's really a rewarding and amazing experience. I can't believe how far Sean and I have some with the acceptance and comfort levels (to some degree anyway.) Our main concern is not to have any interference with our daily life - we are too busy for that. Our attorney said we should agree to everything up front and negotiate later. He apparently is a pro at this and said no matter what he tells us, we won't calm down because he wasn't calm in their first adoption. He said birth family's generally lose interest after the first couple years. They only want to see pictures for so long and then they move on. (Gladney told us the same thing.) He thinks this is a phenomenal situation for us. Talking to him actually put me at ease with a lot of this.
Anyway, the phone just rang and my heart stopped. I was hoping it was Mary but it was the Red Cross and I got mad. I know a lot of you have called over the past couple days and haven't gotten a call back. I am SO sorry and it's not intentional. Work has been extremely busy especially since I am trying to wrap things into a 3-day week since we are heading to Florida on Thursday. And finally I am starting to get the words back and form sentences to people to talk about all of this. My head has stopped spinning for the time being and my fingers are crossed that Jake will be coming home with us VERY soon.
XOXO
Des